Well, i'm in Tennesse, really dont know if i spelled this state right. Same 'ole stuff is coming back to bother me. At least with justin i had the disillusionment of a relationship. Not saying i want to go back there by any means, but...yea jess i know what you're gonna comment but I'd rather vent it out. Another winter is coming, i love winter...for the first month or so, then it starts getting dark, everyone gets sick....then it just overall sucks. That nasty slush on the streets. Not ready for my culture, dont think i ever will be. maybe thats why im where i am, hopefully someone will come around, then again, that doesnt happen often. I have to "work" for what i get. yet theres too much behind it to move forward.

Where am i going with this....fluid writing i suppose. Writing down the thoughts of the mind. This hotel room is empty and quiet. Borrrrreeeed so borrrreeeed. Cant get onto aim cause this computer sucks! I have a really bad feeling in the pit of my stomach, but i dont understand why. Usually when i have a bad feeling about something i can usually target it towards something. This is just a bad feeling. Already loosing sleep. down to 6 and a half hours approximately a night. Thats how it goes i suppose. pokejark: ha thats funny....im not ready for this year...im really not. not ready for change...but i guess no one is. I felt this strange fear when i saw my brother march in with his batallion...The loud drums and the quick paced march. It was a relief to see my brother. But everyone of the shaved clones...marching towards nothing. It scared me...I can imagine that marching into a city, watching that as a bystander and freaking out. I dont know how much longer this country is going to keep its hold. I'd like to see its principles survive. But this, this worries me. So much conflict for unethical radicals.

Blah...anyway.............
anyone realize how superficial chicago is? Im down here and everyones polite, slower, and value what people say. God i love chicago! Eh man the southern boys! im sure they could provide some heh heh southern comfort.

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